A Break in the Equilibrium

I finally feel like things are getting back to normal. What a relief. After the accident – some people refer to it as an accident, some as an incident... I prefer not to refer to it as anything at all – it felt like things would never settle down and that I was doomed to walking on egg shells for the rest of my existence. Thankfully though it's settling and hopeful one day it really will be nothing.

All this time walking on egg shells had made me think though. What does it mean for life to “get back to normal”? And is that really what I mean that I want? In your life should you ever want for things to be “normal”... what ever normal is...?

Do you ever wonder if you're becoming complacent in your life? Why do we always want things to be comfortable and easy... normal? Would it not be better to be a little uncomfortable at times to promote growth and development. Is it wrong to not search for an equilibrium in life but rather to search for the next break in the equilibrium?


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What do you say to people when they prefer not to be talked to. When all you want is to be in their life, yet them seem not to care if you're there or not. What do you say? It would be nice to believe that in their silence they really do want you to talk to them but what if they don't. What if you want so badly to be in someone's life but they truly don't want you there? You just give up and walk away? But why wouldn't they want you there?

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Just to say hey.

You're not there.

You say nothing to me.

So I thought I would write

Just to say hey.

You may respond

You may not.

But at least I know

I did my part.


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