Parting Thoughts of a Nineteen year old girl

I'm turning twenty in less than three hours and I feel I must post once more to really close the book on Abby: The Teenage Years...

I get really anxious before my birthday. Huge anxiety is linked to age increases for me. I don't want to waste being any age. And when it gets to be January again I feel anxiety, inevitably, that I haven't truly fulfilled being the age I am currently; I've wasted being X years old - how can I possibly turn Y years old?!

To counteract this axiety, I've divised a system. I make a list of all the new, fun, crazy, etc things I've done while being any certain age. Last year I even took it far enough as to do something I'd never done before every night the nineteen nights leading up to my nineteenth birthday. This year, I did not have that much time on my hands. However I've still done a pretty good job at compiling a list of twenty listworthy things I've done while being nineteen. It truly helps relieve the anxiety in my soul knowing that I really have lived up to being nineteen. So much so that I need to turn twenty before other people start feeling bad about how much they did not fulfill while being nineteen. It's only fair that I move on to twenty. Ready or not, HERE I COME!!!

Twenty (Crazy) Things

1.Drank Coffee (ON ACCIDENT!)
2.Dyed my hair brown
3.Karaoke :)
4.Drove over 100 mph (Can you say... WHOOSH!...?)
5.Visited a ghost town (Twice, even)
6.Went on a bus adventure
7.Attended the Nutcracker
8.Slept in the sand under the stars
9.Saw a live panda!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (Dream come true!)
10.Visited The Grand Palace (Thailand)
11.Took a canal ride
12.Rode an elephant!!!!!!!!
13.Learned how to change a car battery
14.Took a Lit class!!!!!!!!!! (Brit Lit and American Lit actually... amazing!)
15.Learned how to explain all the parts to the Drake Equation :) (Thank you Life in the Universe)
16.Flew all by myself (No Kaylee next to me jolting me awake every second...)
17.Earned Gold Scissors for exemplary Guest Service
18.Saw Avatar! (Movie of the century: Fifteen years in the making!!!)
19.Used Harry Potter Puppet Pals to Introduce myself and my house (Haha)
20.Finally bought a dress from Urban Wear!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

And so many more.

Nineteen was good to me.

And here comes twenty whether I want it or not. After a long chat with my parents and some one on one time with myself I feel like it certainly is time to move on from teenagerdom and into adulthooddom. It's a dom either way so really, what could be so differnt?

My last teenage words of wisdom:

LIfe is too short, way too short, to get caught up in the little things.
Just let it go. It's not helping you.
Take every oportunity to learn and use it to better yourself.
Love deep.
Trust strong.
Find time to sing, laugh, dance, and be silly.
Don't get so caught up in the details.
Don't place you happiness in someone else's hands. Take control of your own life.
Find your passion, and do it.
Never forget your family, they matter.
Sleep.

Goodnight, dear void.