Still Laughing

I was going to blog later, then I read Gordon's blog and I could resist!

The people next to me in the computer lab right now think I'm insane. My random bursts of laughter are not nearly as appreciated as they should be. If only they knew about the night I had last night...

I have a friend, let's just call him Joe. Joe and I have been friends for a while now. We talk often and he has become a very important person in my life. Last night I was going through an insecure spell in our friendship. I felt that the past little while Joe had been a bit distant. I felt as though he didn't really care about me as much as I once had thought he had. (Or as much as he should, because who wouldn't care about me a lot?! I mean honestly?!) When I told him this, he didn't say anything. Being a girl, I knew that the correct response to my expressing my insecurities was for him to refute them. To tell me I was crazy and that he did too care about me. When he didn't respond this way I did the natural thing and interpreted his silence as confirmation of my insecurities. I hung up the phone convinced I meant nothing to Joe and cried for the next hour after telling as many people as I felt needed to know immediately that Joe and I were no longer going to be in each others' lives.

Joe cares about me. He is my friend and I am his. I love communication.

Take the time today to tell the important people in your life that you care about them and that you're grateful to have them in your life. Even if you think they know, we all go through insecurity spells from time to time. You can never be told too many times that you are cared about.

I love you guys. If you're taking time to read about my crazy, often insane, life then I love you. If you think you know who Joe is... you don't. Joe is the characterization of a person we all have in our lives who we wonder about. Male, or female. Do they really care that I'm in their life at all? If I stopped talking to them today, would they even notice?

Stop being insecure in your relationships. Stop assuming (because we all know what assuming does...) that people don't care about you. Look for the best in people and you will find it.

If you think you might be being a Joe in somebody's life, you probably are. So do something about it. It's OK to be attached to people. It's OK to tell them that you care. It's OK to be the first to tell them you are grateful to have them around and it's OK to call them up just to say, "Hi" or to see if they want to go adventuring.

Initiating something every once in a while rejuvenates the soul. (Feel free to quote me.)

Goodnight, dear void.